Louissa's World

a little update

28 October 2011 By louissa 1 In chocolates

i make 4 cups of coffee every morning. only 4. i used to make this small of a pot on the sunday mornings when i would find myself putting a worship set list together far before anyone else was waking. the coffee was always terrible those mornings (i decided that i just didn’t know how to make anything under 10 cups). i’m happy to say that i’ve now mastered the art of brewing such a small pot.

i’m currently eating a blueberry muffin given to the husband and i by our friendly neighbors. today another neighbor is dropping by to say hello. and the first day of louissa-at-home-while-the-husband-goes-to-work? a new friend and then a new sister dropped by to see how i was.

speaking of “louissa-at-home-while-the-husband-goes-to-work” days — there haven’t been many. just one this past wednesday. then i’ve had him all to myself yesterday and will again today which makes our honeymoon period seem even longer. sure, the only reason i’m getting these extra moments is because he’s not been feeling well and was told not to go to work, but he’s still with me. all day long.

so don’t worry about me, i continue to be spoiled like always.

dream

26 October 2011 By louissa 1 In chocolates

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it’s true that it felt like a dream. from the minute i woke on october 15 to today — it seems unreal. a wedding celebration, a covenant made, a move on the very same day — everything turned upside down and i was given a new life.

my husband is currently on the kitchen floor fixing something underneath the stove, home from our honeymoon yesterday and starting to live real life together. dinner dishes remain, a candle flickers on our kitchen island, laundry is folded in piles on our couch, and i sit here wondering how all this came to be. i have a home. i’m making a home. and i have a husband who i love so fiercely.

it’s perfectly wonderful and everything happy.

and such a dream.

your love is strong

04 October 2011 By louissa 2 In chocolates

I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place
I look at the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

the testimony is that in the midst of a horrific storm, i continue to say that trusting Him is better than any other way. - from a letter written to a friend, january 2011

i am here only knowing the kindness of God, for i’ve experienced that God really does know what i need. i knew that i needed hope & life breathed back into my soul, but i never thought that it would come through His bringing a someone into my world. but He did. and He’s whispered His words of love over me through it all.

and this is what my soul knows: i’m simply undone, undeserving, and wrecked by His great goodness.

You know what i need.

change

19 September 2011 By louissa 1 In chocolates

it wasn’t that long ago when i was convinced God had me here for keeps. and with this i found myself doing the only thing i could think to do — redo my bedroom.

some dear friends helped me paint everything not once, but twice when the first yellow seemed a bit too canary for my liking. and remember when i was adding the finishing touches of wall hangings and my avant-garde wall decoration above my bed? i love my yellow walls, blue bedding, and colorful hangings here and there.

and the strange part? it’s all very clear now that God wasn’t planning on keeping me here for keeps, and with only 26 days left of being here, i’ve found myself starting to pack my life up in boxes — clearing the yellow room of everything me.

it’s just strange how quickly life changes sometimes. right when i felt as if i had been at a standstill forever and there was no sign of change a’comin, suddenly everything was rearranged and now i’m heading somewhere completely new.

i don’t really have a point to any of this… i’m finding there are few points to anything i have to say these days. i guess i’m just trying to pause for a second in the midst of all the life that’s flying past at a faster pace than i’ve ever known, and capture something for my memory collection.

so here i am, in the middle of what has been the messiest this yellow room has ever been, recognizing how foreign it feels to try to put my life into some plastic bins and cardboard boxes, and taking a second to just be.

i’m packing my life up. preparing for a new season. and although this sentimental heart won’t allow me to forget that this also means i’ll be kissing the daddy & mums goodbye too soon, there’s no mistaking the excitement, happiness, and absolute confidence concerning this change that’s found me.

God’s good like that.

on a quiet friday night i may -

09 September 2011 By louissa 0 In chocolates

- do multiple loads of laundry. sometimes you realize it’s been far too long.

- make tuna curry and eat it over rice. my go-to quick meal happens to be a favorite as well. that’s a win.

- scrub a shower floor. do you know how many feet stand on it? actually, don’t think about it.

- make a list for tomorrow’s shopping trip (cardigan for my day, gifts for my day, groomsmen apparel, etc.).

- spend a few minutes purposefully not thinking wedding. quiet moments are needed.

- then spend more minutes thinking wedding than my minutes not thinking wedding.

- curl up on a couch with a friend and watch a movie.

(and now you know why i’ve been neglecting this place. it’s not exactly like creativity is currently abounding when it comes to entertaining the general public with blog posts. someday i’ll be back.

that’s a promise.)

only 56 more days

20 August 2011 By louissa 4 In chocolates

sometimes it hits me –

i’m getting married in 56 days.

wow.

it became real when my dress arrived and i couldn’t stop putting it on. no, you don’t get any pictures of that.

it became real when i walked into the house to see these:

it’s never too early to start prep for your reception, right? a million dried hydrangeas coming right up!

it became real as i drove to lowes after work last night to pick out a counter top for one of my bathrooms.

have i mentioned how many new experiences have been thrown my way in the last five months? let’s start with a relationship budding through two strangers emailing and count from there — yeah, a lot. picking out counter tops is in the i-don’t-know-how-to-do-this list (hence the face that was made to show the boy how uncertain i was feeling on this errand).

it became real as i drive from one auction to the next this morning. i saw these instantly when i walked into the first auction and thought of my rather massive bedroom that needs to be furnished:

just as quickly as i spotted them a man whisked them to the front and they were sold rather instantly. apparently others liked them as well.

and it becomes so very real every time my best sends me files that are pretty and have our names and ideas for how to present the important details to the general public –