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March, 2011

  1. nutella cream cheese swirl brownies

    March 30, 2011 by louissa

    i just made these and oh-dear-heaven-and-earth-and-everything-else-there-possibly-could-be — they seem divine.  i won’t actually know since i made them for a bake sale my cousin is having tomorrow.

    I KNOW — who bakes an unknown recipe for a bake sale?!

    apparently i do.  i like to live life on the wild side (you can laugh now).

    i’ll make them again though.  then i shall really know if they’re as amazing as they look.

    i will tell you this: two of the younger ones stood around the bowls after i finished, frantically licking anything they could.  i figure if the batter is that good then the finished product has to be at least okay!

    so, if you’re looking for something new and fun, this was simple and everyone’s ridiculously excited about them.

    and you never know — it might be good.

    (didn’t you like this recipe review where i didn’t really know much?)

  2. kaesespaetzle

    March 30, 2011 by louissa

    dear kaesespaetzle,

    i’ve found you.  i know we’ve been separated for almost three and a half years but we don’t have to be anymore.  i’ve been given a very simple recipe to start with and now i will search for edam cheese.  once found, we shall be able to be the best of friends again.

    you’re my favorite food.  you know that, right?  i know that i’ve changed in many ways these last three years, but i don’t believe my love for you has been altered.  i look forward to enjoying you here on a continent so far from where you originated… and where i first discovered your wonders.

    the girl who fell in love you with over in germany

  3. full of my sentimental feelings

    March 28, 2011 by louissa

    in the middle this grey, cold, tired sort of monday, i pulled up a photo from our trip in september.  we had decided to go to burlington and thrift.  i was excited because i love thrift stores, burlington, and i was pretty convinced she’s one of the coolest things so why wouldn’t i want to spend a day with her?  we didn’t really knew each other back then.  i’m sure we thought we did after months of writing, but it was nothing compared to the knowing now.

    (windblown on a favorite ferry ride)

    it’s amazing how in just a few short months such strong bonds can be formed, friendship can be confirmed a thousand different ways, and suddenly that amazing love that knows no limits is present.  she’s the one who laid beside me on cruel january nights, holding my hand as i cried.  she’s endured the same song on repeat for multiple hours as i say, “i just need this right now.”  and when my selfish, sinful heart has been exposed, she’s only shown grace.

    and i just keep wondering why i’m blessed with THE BEST friends.  i keep wondering why they’re given to me to share my life with in an office, in so many events with family & friends, and adventure after adventure.  i keep wondering why me.

    it’s what i’ve had and it’s what i have.  it’s what my heart is thankful for today.

    today she asked if i ever need a break from her being so present in my everything.  i laughed and tried to, in my fumbling sort of way, tell her that that’s never been the case and probably won’t ever be.

    i guess this post, full of me gushing about sentimental feelings, is my attempt to somehow tell what gifts i’ve been given.  who else gets to work, live nearby, and spend almost all their time with their best friends?  yeah, that would be me.  and not just once but twice.

    and so we looked at the photos and said that soon we’ll go again.  go find more aqua buses.  i’ll wear more 60s inspired clothes and she’ll pull out more incredibly cute thrifted flowered tops.  we’ll listen to music and hopefully won’t be so distracted by talking that a speeding ticket accompanies the trip.  and we’ll simply continue to experience life together.  yeah, that’s when i know i’m lucky.  i get to experience life with that brown haired beauty.

    (the long haired versions of us thinking we’re pretty cool)

  4. a wandering sort of afternoon

    March 26, 2011 by louissa

    i should be thinking about my busy sunday right now.  if i was being responsible i would be putting together a song list and starting to consider what should be said at the sunday night young adult gathering.  but sometimes, when there’s much to be taken care of, instead of being inspired, i find myself on the verge of tears and looking for a place to hide.  i don’t want to experience that right now.

    so i’m here.  to tell you that i adventured a bit today.

    i reminded myself of where i come from as i drove through country roads that aren’t traveled often by this girl.

    and i wandered through woods in my very nice coat and white gloves.  sometimes this grew-up-in-a-small-town-but-still-not-very-country sort of girl doesn’t always think clearly.  but the woods were divine.

    and my adventuring friend is pretty divine as well.

    and now i shall go start to work through my list.  or maybe just sleep and let tomorrow unfold as it may.

    somehow that sounds like a very good plan.

  5. pass the vitamin C

    March 22, 2011 by louissa

    after claiming such a strong immune system for so long (hey, all the bugs & strep that went through the family in the last few years somehow bypassed me — strong immune system), weeks ago i fell prey to the wretched flu that ravaged everything and everyone (and i’m slightly dramatic).  for days i curled up in a bed down in the ‘ole lone star state to be followed by a few more days of bed here in small town, us of a.

    finally feeling healthy again (albeit a bit tired), i thought i had filled my sickness quota for 2011.

    but last night something hit again.  hours of chills, an aching head, and sore throat meant little sleep was had during the night hours.  and today?  there was a pathetic attempt to work in the office for 2.5 hours (where i think i totally confused the ups delivery man since i wasn’t my usual jovial self) only to give up, come home, and sleep for four hours this afternoon.  and i still feel terrible.

    fine.  lesson learned.  i’ll start taking vitamins on a daily basis to boost my immune system.  i won’t brag about how i don’t have to do anything and i still remain safe from everything that hits those around me.  but please, sickness, go away.  i hate being sick.

  6. youthful enthusiasm

    March 18, 2011 by louissa

    i have a childhood love that’s stayed true through all the years of change.  allow me to indulge now and then with some classic (that’s a very important word) Pooh.

    “By the time it came to the edge of the Forest, the stream had grown up, so that it was almost a river, and, being grown-up, it did not run and jump and sparkle along as it used to do when it was younger, but moved more slowly.  For it knew now where it was going, and it said to itself, “There is no hurry.  We shall get there some day.”  But all the little streams higher up in the Forest went this way and that, quickly, eagerly, having so much to find out before it was too late.” – A. A. Milne

  7. thank you, Jesus

    March 17, 2011 by louissa

    …for this warm day.

    …for the chance to wear green & host a fun dinner (and for a mums who lets me use her house for said dinner).

    …for an office that i enjoy coming to, bosses who encourage, and for giving me the best coworkers imaginable.

    …for turning yesterday, one of my worst days ever, into one of the very best. You humble, You correct, and You love so greatly.

  8. tomorrow i wake as a twenty-three year old girl.

    March 14, 2011 by louissa

    there’s something so bittersweet about the passing of time and this year, i feel it acutely.

    so goodnight, twenty-two year old self.  you were a good year.

  9. wilted

    March 12, 2011 by louissa

    sometimes you just have to be honest.  i scribble out on paper the very things my heart is saying, feeling, needing.

    part of me despairs.  part of me wonders if i’ll ever get it.  part of me wonders if i’ll always live with failure as my identity.  part of me wonders if i’ll always allow my emotions dictate my response to criticism.  part of me wonders if i’ll ever learn to respond with grace.  part of me wonders if i’ll ever believe what God says about me.

    but i also tell myself that there’s good news.  there’s tomorrow — fresh, ready for me to taste of His wonderful new mercies.  and with tomorrow comes another opportunity for me to grab hold of His promises, choosing belief in the face of doubt.

    that’s good news.

  10. a regular saturday in my world update

    March 12, 2011 by louissa

    - i sat at my kitchen table in pajamas for… basically three hours this morning.  coffee was enjoyed in a slow way that no other morning of the week allows, fruit was eaten, and much conversation was had.  the talkative should-be-brother-and-oldest-friend-of-mine was around and sometimes we revert to our fifteen year old selves who could converse for hours.  those were the days of so much free time…

    - after sitting for three hours i decided that i had been lazy long enough.  i threw on unbecoming sweats and my under armour (not be confused with armor all), grabbed an iPod, and decided to try a slow jog.  it’s only been like six months since i really ran — i couldn’t be that bad, right?  ohdear.  i’ve got some work to do.  AND, can it please just warm up?  my throat hurt from that cold wind!

    - my dad has always done my taxes.  yeah, i’m that girl who hands him my W-2 form, tells him the measly amount of interest my savings account accrued over the year, and lets him do the rest.  as i’ve watched him become increasingly busy over the last few months, i thought i would make his life a bit simpler by handling this (time to grow up, louissa).  so this morning i sat down to try to learn about filing taxes.  after all, he said mine are easy.  yeah, about that, dad…  i’ll just say that nothing’s really been figured out and he received an email with questions.  so much for making his life easier.

    - i need to do laundry today.  you can imagine the difficulty of finding a free washer & dryer with twelve individuals using the same machines.  laundry at my house can get chaotic because of this and sometimes, clothes end up in drawers they don’t belong.  i was reminded of this today already.  just think my underwear and another sister’s drawer.  i wish i could say these types of things never happen, but my dear readers, i’ve had to ask this many times: “are you wearing my underwear?”  at this point i find it ridiculously amusing.

    - it’s now 12:30pm.  i have no real plans for the day and i can’t tell you how happy i am about that.  my introvert self thrives on chunks of time at home, able to clean bathrooms, live in sweats, do laundry (with enough time to make sure that my underwear is put away in my drawer), and not be overwhelmed by outside responsibilities.  there — my confession of not being as much of an extrovert as you thought.