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January, 2011

  1. confession

    January 31, 2011 by louissa

    i’m obsessed enough with myself that i just looked to see what day of the week my birthday falls this year.  somehow a friday or saturday birthday seems best because you can make celebrating a whole weekend affair and i just love celebrating… me.  i know, it’s terrible and i shouldn’t love when everyone’s focus is on me quite this much, but i do.  i love being loved.

    (and don’t you love being loved on that much?)

    this year my birthday is on a tuesday.  ugh.  tuesday.  the only thing worse would be a thursday birthday.  i dislike thursdays more than you probably hate wednesdays.

    but three years ago my birthday also fell on a tuesday (please do not ask how i remember such things).

    all this to say:

    dear calendar,

    please have march 15 be on a saturday in 2012.  i’ve had enough tuesday birthdays recently.

    thanks lots,

  2. Where you invest your love, you invest your life.

    January 25, 2011 by louissa

  3. just a thought.

    January 24, 2011 by louissa

    you do not care that in a dreamlike trance i shut my alarm off this morning and slept an hour more, giving me a grand total of 25 minutes to ready myself for the day.  and it probably doesn’t matter to you that i sat in my office chair for 8 hours and they whizzed by like never before.  i’m guessing it wouldn’t interest you to say that upon arriving home, i cleaned my bird’s cage, washed down a bathroom, tidied a bedroom, and managed to get three loads of laundry in.  and you would only get jealous to learn that i just ate a slice of delicious apple pie.


    perhaps you will care/it may matter/this might be interesting/and you’ll probably get jealous [again] to learn that i also booked a ticket to see the best friend down in texas.  oh yes.  almost three weeks and i will be there in her dear little house, meeting her dear little roommates, and seeing a place i’ve never seen before.

    and once again, i’m here being a continual reminder to myself and everyone else, that life is quite ironic.

    as a six year old girl i watched Little Women in a great big theater (first time in a movie theater).  i was raised on such literature and these books made into films were our favorites.  and i saw myself in Beth for most of my life –  i never had a desire to go and be too much of anything.  i was far too comfortable at home with by my biggest cheerleader, the mumsie.  when there was talk of Sinclairs traveling and conquering much in life… well, i wasn’t usually the one being talked about.

    but here i am today, almost to my 23rd birthday, and so many places have been visited and seen.

    i could end by throwing my hands in the air and laughing at how ironic my life has been with all its complete opposites of everything i had planned, but it doesn’t end with this unsatisfactory thought.  it’s more that there’s a God who isn’t bound by our fears and insecurities, but instead chooses to use them to prove to us and the world that with Him, we can do anything.  and that is a satisfying final thought.

  4. jury duty! hello jack mccoy!

    January 19, 2011 by louissa

    i received my first jury summons today.  does that mean i’m a legit walking, talking adult who supposedly thinks logically enough to be a part of an actual jury?  guess so.

    and i’m either still super young or i’ve watched too many law & order episodes because my first reaction to the piece of mail was excitement.  if i’m remembering correctly, most people are annoyed with this responsibility.  i know, i’m young little girl.  i’m okay with that.

    let me get my first jury duty over with and then i’ll join the rest of you annoyed individuals.  until then, i’ll be excited.

  5. play on sunday

    January 16, 2011 by louissa

    i put my pajamas on at 5:30pm (it’s never too early to wear the favorite floral pj bottoms on a sunday).  i set up my younger brother’s xbox and a friend and i raced cars.  it’s been about two years since i sat in our loft playing a video game.  i’m dreadful, we wrecked our cars, and loved it.

    i think i’m craving chocolate milk now.

    kicking back and being a kid again for the night?  best thing ever.

  6. untitled

    January 10, 2011 by louissa

    my head feels warm and my eyes tired. the room i’m in is a mess. they say i’m faithful to the end. i say i’m stupid to the end. there are days when nobody thinks very well of themselves and i guess today is my turn. i wonder if the state of my room is a reflection of my very heart.

    cluttered & messy.

    but i just sit.

    sleep shall be had. tomorrow will come.
    and maybe that will change my entire perspective.

  7. my happiness.

    January 8, 2011 by louissa

    i’ll never tire of these faces.  i love, love, love being an auntie.

  8. today was said.

    January 5, 2011 by louissa

    today i said, “thank you, Jesus, for the wonderful sun that’s shining down upon my world.”

    i never realize how many grey days there’s been until one morning i wake to find blue skies.  what pleasant days those are!

    and today i said, “i shall wear fuschia tights & doc martens because i can.

    i’m sorry if you find my color & pattern mixing a bit much.

    i like it.