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May, 2009

  1. mmm

    May 18, 2009 by louissa

    i’ve had wonderfully good days recently.  days with friends visiting are always like that.  rainy walks down to the smalltown diner for breakfast will do just the trick to bring a smile to the face.

    i don’t want her to grow up.  nope, not at all.  stay young and this fresh and cute forever, k?

    lovely ladies for a 16th birthday dinner celebration.  we went out for it.  we always make birthday dinners.  it was rather nice to have no prep or clean up!

    it was her birthday.  16.  really?  no, she can’t be that old.  we’re planning a piercing party.  she’ll get second holes in her earlobes, i’ll have my nose done, and my brother even wants in on it.  well, it’ll happen when we get the nerve to ask the papa.  =)

    and mmm.  more time with her.  oh how i do love her.  friends are the best.


  2. lamo update.

    May 13, 2009 by louissa

    i don’t have much.  but i’m still around.

    i used to pride myself in noting and loving the little things in life.  now i sit here trying to think of what those things are right now — what the past few days have held that might be interesting.

    a tired girl with full days?  yeah, that’s interesting.

    i do keep reading this though.  and feeling these words go through my mind and my mouth: Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing.

    i’m trying to bless Him.  and i’m trying to understand that He’s blessed me with every spiritual blessing.  He just did.  i don’t have to do anything for it.  He just blessed and continues to bless.

    that’s amazing.


  3. my walk

    May 7, 2009 by louissa

    i trounced through the rain covered green grass, my canvas shoes becoming more squishy with every step.  my evening duties plans suddenly didn’t need me and i had a free evening.  not quite sure what to do with myself, but not feeling up for an evening “out in town” i decided to do a usual louissa night.

    i’m a simple person.  and i’m okay with that.  i’m content to pick up the same camera i’ve been picking up for four years, wear the same shoes i’ve been wearing for two, walk the same block i’ve been walking for… uh, let’s say fifteen years (i was a slow walker), and take in the same views and same pictures i always have.  it never tires me.  the cemetery is just as appealing, the green fields just as luscious, and the sky just as dramatic and glorious.

    you might be tired of these sights, but i’m not.

    beauty in the fading.

    fresh colors speaking of life in the midst of death.

    telling tales of being forgotten.

    sun. streaming. warmth.

    green being everywhere!

    and the blueness of the sky after a day of dark!

    the shoes in the damp.

    the end of it all.

    the walk is my walk.  the one i always take.  when there was more time, it was walked more often.  it’s been jogged, it’s been power walked, it’s been strolled — it’s been taken alone, it’s been taken in groups of people.  the cemetery has been used for hide-and-seek and snow fights.  the lawns have been used as we lay watching stars, pointing out satellites, and telling tales late into the night.

    it never changes.  year after year it’s the same.  and i love that about this place.


  4. thankful game

    May 6, 2009 by louissa

    i’m home alone.  alone.  it’s almost worth the achy body and tired throat and nose for an evening of home aloneness.  well, almost alone and almost worth it.  dear grandma and grandpa are in their apartment but that’s alone in this house.

    i folded clothes and put them on my shelves.  he slipped out of his apartment into the main house, unaware that i was still here.  up to the piano he went, cleared his throat and played a chord.  vocal warm ups began.  he’d stop awkwardly halfway through, clear his voice again, and try to reach that high note.

    his voice is more wobbly than i remember it ever being.  his face a bit more wrinkled and aged.  i wondered if he was imagining the days when he would sing in grand opera theaters and perform on a regular basis.  i wondered what it’s like to live for gifts that are only temporal and then be put on the bench to sit for the rest of your life because your time is up.  i folded and thanked God that i’ve come to know Him at a young age and that i don’t have to worry about that.

    i’m very much into the thankful game.  i like being thankful.  i’ve recently been thankful for:

    a squirmy little red headed boy with the darlingest freckles.

    the scoobs baby.  (these photos, taken on my phone, are sometimes quite blurry when the subject moves.  what seems alien-ish to you in this photo i found rather “cool”)

    new jeans for $15.  it’s the little things in life, right?

    bubsie.  his family is moving in down the road from us.  and as i told a friend of mine, that’s like having a favorite aunt, uncle, and cousins move in.  ’tis wonderfulness!

    watching little blue men out on a field with a dramatic sky behind them.

    a phone that takes such clear photos when the subjects don’t move.

    and watching this little blue man while he ran around the bases and played in the outfield.

    what are you thankful for today?