i figured i’d take advantage of having the internet for the next few days and since i finished most of my homework yesterday i’ll write again today.

no one here knows what today marks for so many at home but the Lord does. and He reminded me of that when Mr.Reid shared this morning and i felt like he was speaking to me.

how many times have i thought, “God, that’s not fair”? but when did God promise me that life would be fair? how many times have i thought, “how could You let this happen?” but when did God say that He would make sure nothing bad would happen? we are the ones in the fallen world…

it isn’t fair that we are all grieving — even now, a year later. i don’t understand how God could have let him take his own life. it isn’t fair that a wonderful family had to go through this when others will never know pain like that.

i’ve wished this all away before, but He has never promised to fulfill all my wishes but to fulfill His promises. He did not promise a life free from pain, but He did promise His comfort. He didn’t promise that we would never deal with sorrow, but He did promise us His joy to come with the morning. God promised us His guidance, but not a life without confusion. and God promised us ressurection, but not a life without death.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you. For I am the Lord, Your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.” – Isaiah 43