want to spend some quality time with friends?

come over to my house after a party (it was a bridal shower this time) and wash all the dishes with them. you end up standing in front of the sink for longer then you can imagine, your hands turn into prunes, and perhaps your shirt ends up just a little wet. but you do end up talking with them more then you might normally — especially if you’re like me. i’m such a social person. that’s why my dad jokes around and says, “Dar, we’ll have to start paying her to get out of the house.”

yup, just wash dishes. it totally maxes out your quota for quality time with friends for the week.

we had apple crisp tonight. it had the correct amount of apples and we had the vanilla ice cream to go with it. my apologies to family and friends who had to eat my apple crisp this past wednesday that according to some, didn’t have enough apples, and we didn’t have any ice cream to go with it.

next time…

i stood in the kitchen, pretending to play keyboard on the back of one of the chairs and singing a worship song. he sat in another chair playing his drums and letting me know when he was playing his kick-drum, ride cymbal, or high-hat. she comes and sits on my lap when she wants to look at books. the other day he came to me and said, “aunt louissa, hold me.” he loves me. she loves me. and there is no way that they’ll ever fall out of that. : )

i knew i was a freak.

or i could say that it’s just my artsy side… after all, i was getting ready for a performance. : )

December 24, 2003

i want a little farm house in some green country. i want their to be a fireplace in it and a big kitchen. i want gardens full of laughing flowers to grace the yard. i want a stream to be somewhere on my land. i want a barn with two horses. i want a chicken coop filled with squawking chicken. i want there to be three big maples in front of the house. i want to be hanging laundry on a line with three little children running around me. i want blue skies all the time and rain only in the summer. i want cozy nights, sitting around the fireplace and sipping hot chocolate. i want time to indulge myself in pride and prejudice once a year. i don’t ever want to leave that place.

a few months ago if you had asked me what i wanted to do after i graduate, i would have told you that i didn’t know. if you had asked me what i want to be, i would have told you that i didn’t know. if you had asked me what my dreams are, i would have told you that i didn’t have any.

but i do believe that that wasn’t all true. i knew what i wanted — but i wanted to want something else. i found myself embarrassed because i had always laughed at the other girls like me, thinking that they were so pathetic. shouldn’t you only dream of going to china and seeing millions saved in your lifetime?

i’ve come to realize that i love my wants and desires. i find i love them too much.

recently the question has been, “will you give it up if I ask?” and so i’ve wrestled with it. i wanted the answer to be yes, but i know my flesh is strong. my want to please Him is great — i like to think that it’s greater then my want to please myself, but i know how weak i can be. oh! that i would deny myself daily to follow Him!

Take my will, and make it Thine; it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart, it is Thine own; it shall be Thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord, I pour at Thy feet its treasure store.
Take myself, and I will be ever, only, all for Thee.

isn’t the country lovely? : )

i do believe that the reason one might have a blog, is so that one can write in it. don’t think i’m ignoring you — i’m all too aware of you to be able to pretend that you’re not around. i’m just merely waiting until my head has settled down a bit before trying to write anything at all.

but to make sure that i’m still entertaining you, i’ll give you some fun places to go.

he’s pretty funny.

the baby of the family is here.

i like these people. i like them alot.

and it’s stupid because the picture is just barely too big. i have two options. i could use the “small” version from flickr, but it’s too small. or i could personally make it just a little bit smaller. but i’m not going to do that. it’s too much work at this time of night.

and that’s pretty stupid.

here.